Yesterday I was blue. So blue I had to text and call friends for support 'cause I wanted nothing more than to do something to numb myself. Something so I didn't have to be in a state of down that didn't appear to be going anywhere, any time soon. I'm still quite depressed, but I'm trying to focus on the fact that we are being released early due to a holiday, and then I'm going to pick up my sister to stay the night, and we're going to pig out on pizza, and then go to dim sum tomorrow morning. She texted me that her boyfriend punched her in the mouth yesterday, and she finally kicked him out. I'm glad because I have had a really hard time being nice to a guy who I know treats her poorly, but it's not my job to save her from that. Doesn't mean if I see him again I won't be tempted to bash his head in to a tree, but let's get on to the good stuff.
Every time I'm blue I make a gratitude list. I write down everything I am grateful for. Believe me, this is not so easy to do when you're so busy focusing on your first world problems. But I did it.
I am grateful that I have friends who do stuff. If I need my car fixed, I have someone to call. If I need a picture of underwear driving a car (actual request I got yesterday from someone at work after I made a joke about our underwear drive) I have someone to email and request that. If I need a painting of any sort, it's mine. If I need someone to make girl reading a book mud flaps for my Honda, I have someone who could.
I am grateful that I have neighbors who are helpful. One of the fellas just got back in the country after returning home to Jalisco, and almost every night when I come home he asks, "Do you need anything done around the house?" So far they've cleaned my gutters, and trimmed up a bush in front of my house. I told them I can't pay them but I can make them food whenever they want. Having a sense of neighborhood is really important to me, so I'm glad there is one where I live.
I am grateful for awesome ladies at work. I was moping around this morning dismayed 'cause I don't have any fresh flower money in my budget this month. Voila! My friend Kymberley just walked up and handed me two bunches of flowers. Hiya miracle. I see what you did just then.
I am grateful that I have a family to spend Easter with, even if some of them aren't the greatest company. Some people have no family.
I am grateful that I have a really cool building built in the '20s near my work that I can sit on the grass and look at when I have the blues, and appreciate how awesome architecture can be.
I am grateful that people plant random flowers on the streets here.
I am grateful that I didn't drink or do anything last night that would in any way compromise how far I've come in the past few years.
I am grateful that a lovely lady named Kathy took the initiative to hide easter eggs around the office this morning, so I got to have chocolate with my breakfast.
I am grateful that I have a house that feels like a home, and two borrowed kitties to snuggle up to.
I am grateful for so much more, but I don't want to spend all day doing this. :)
Happy picture of the day: a restaurant I went to Wednesday had a really cute housemade peep dessert. I loathe peeps, but got it anyways (I can't stand the texture of marshmallows, blech). It came with a 50/50 pot de creme and a lemon lime bar. Thanks Mulvaney's for always having such whimsical menu items.