Because of all the misfires in my brain it has been necessary for me to create systems. There are things I do the same exact way, in the same exact order, every day. I have to do this or I'll forget something of importance. One time I was interrupted in the middle of my shower and was changing for gym class only to discover I'd forgotten to shave my right leg. That will always happen whenever I'm in the middle of one of my routines and it gets interrupted.
Every morning when my alarm goes off I immediately go in to the bathroom and brush and floss my teeth. Then I turn on the iron, and go in the kitchen and put all the dishes on the drying mat away. Then I empty the litterbox and sweep around it. Then I wash my hands. I go in to the room and pick out my work clothes, iron them, and lay them out. I go in to the bathroom and turn the shower on, then go back and unplug the iron and fold up the ironing board. By this time the shower is nice and warm. I do everything in the shower in the same order every day. Unless I skip a day. And I'm not going to lie, sometimes I skip a day. But rarely, since I now do a lot more exercising. I need to shower sometimes more than once a day. Before I leave the house I make sure my lunch and a piece of fruit are in my bag, and I have closed all the windows. I then pull out stuff from the freezer for dinner.
I used to always find something I liked at a restaurant and order it every time, because of fear I would order something else and not like it. I have broken out of that habit. Because there are so many things I HAVE to do the same every day, I try and create variety in other places in my life. Like the books I read, the music I listen to, the movies I watch, etc.
I walk to work the same way every day, and my path back to the car is a different route. I get home, check the mailbox, get inside and put all my stuff back where it belongs (coffee cup and phone charger), then feed the cats. I sweep around the litterbox and go in to my room. If I am not going anywhere or having company, I put on my pajamas. Then depending on what day it is sometimes I water my lawns. Then I pull out what I'm having for dinner 'cause it usually has an hour more to thaw.
I work out in my living room, or in the backyard every week night except Friday. Sometimes I put on workout clothes, but sometimes I just do it in my pj's. It depends. Sometimes if I want to have a lazy night I set my alarm for 5 am so I can go for a run or workout in the backyard in the morning, when it's cool outside. It gets pretty hot here in the summer, and I hate being hot.
I like my things just so. Not only do I like them just so, I NEED them just so. Since I know I can not control the world around me when I am outside my home, I really like that I can control the environment inside my home. It makes me feel safe. If something in my house is out of order it throws me off and makes me really uncomfortable. This is why the thought of sharing my home with someone has always frightened me. It's also why getting the cats was kind of a test. I had to see if I could still operate with things in the house not exactly how I wanted them to be. I'm slowly relaxing about some of my control issues, but I know for a fact some of them will be with me forever. Like the need to do the dishes before I go to bed (which I have now not done a total of three times since I've owned my home. Go me!)
There are some things that I can't stand when other people do, that I am slowly realizing aren't that big of a deal. There is one thing in particular Dave does that I HATE. But it's not rude, and doesn't really negatively effect me, so I'm trying to just let it go and get over it. That is huge for me. To have someone sitting next to me fiddling with their phone makes my fucking skin crawl. But I'm working on it. I don't need to understand why someone is so attached to their phone, or playing Boggle while we're watching tv. I just need to understand that it is something they enjoy doing, and be okay with that. Just like they have a lot of stuff I'm sure bugs them about me, like having to have my books just so. Or the fact that I go behind them and wipe down the counters after them. And the million other things that are totally annoying that I know I do. :)
I am a total creature of habit and I admit it. Some of those habits are good, and some I need to let go of. Some are a complete necessity so that I can continue to go through life without taking meds. Some are just habits I got in to from living alone so long that really are of no importance whatsoever. I am constantly learning about which ones are fluid and which ones are rigid. There aren't as many rigid ones as I thought there were. And hopefully, as I grow, there will be less and less rigid ones. That sure would be keen.
Happy picture of the day: here's Kymberley and I on the Giant Dipper. We had to buy the picture because we look so ridiculous. I love this picture.